update Day 3

So seriously Fuck this day. Like completely just fucking burn and bury the bitch.
So we have a plan to get "S" out of jail but not until fucking midnight when I will be at work.
So ya. And he isn't allowed to see or talk to me or the kids until May fucking 12th. Are you freaking kidding me, that's missing Easter Sunday and our oldest daughters birthday, amd opening day for the other 2 with baseball. And leaving me with a whole lot of bills and stress and kid stuff and baseball practices. And Our oldest has her 8th grade prom the weekend of the 17th. Fuck this shit. I honestly cannot handle all that on my own and work as much as possible to keep the bills up. I miss my husband, I know I know. I know all the cliches I know all the rules but dammit I miss him. I just want to hug him one time especially now that I know I cant until the middle of May. That's 6 weeks of him living right down the street and not being able to see him. This is a hard lesson for both of us. Seriously fucking hard like Id rather cut my arm off because it is stuck under a rock. hard. I just wanna scream.
so FUCKING FUCK FUCK. Not the same but kinda therapeutic anyway. Gotta go to bed cuz I have to work and deal with some asshattery, douchebaggery, and just general assholeness. And have to ask the queen b's for a favor tonight so I can sneak off to talk to the person picking S up and make sure he is ok. I cant talk to him but I can talk to her. So guess Im off to dreamland if I can find it.........
...FML


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